I have a beef with confidence. And in the past few weeks I have set out to settle it. What I have come to is this: There is no way to be confident in who I am without Christ. I cannot be confident in a person that is broken and inherently bad. But I can have complete confidence in the Lord. In 1 Timothy 1:7, it is clear we gain power, love, and self-control through God.
When I begin to pride myself in who I am, my confidence changes. It is a superficial, sickly confidence that masks deep and painful insecurity. Because who I am is not a pretty picture when I stand alone. Sometimes I want to believe in me. Because it feels good to be responsible for the good in my life. I am a good friend, I am a good daughter, I am a good student, I am just wonderful. I love people, I love myself, I love love. The only problem with that is the person responsible for anything good in my life is certainly not me. If life was up to me, I would being a lieing, manipulative creature who only cared about people to benefit myself. When I am confident in the love and grace of the Lord, it overflows into every part of my life. Every dear friend and any success I have is a direct result of His influence. I can't claim those things for myself. Because pretty soon I start to feel inadequate and worthless, and am unable to keep up.
My new goal: acknowledging Christ.
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